Fear.

Anxiety is a feeling and emotion of excessive and prolonged worry, a sense of dread and generalized tension. Fear and anxiety are similar emotions but have important differences. While fear is based on a specific threat and is relatively short, anxiety has no definite basis and often prolonged. We all experience anxiety at some level. Students feel anxious when taking an exam. You may feel apprehensive about going out on a blind date. Many people are scared of delivering a speech. Many situations in everyday life evoke anxiety. This means that anxiety is a normal occurrence and is part of a human being's strategy to cope with life. Ever since I was a young girl I exhibited signs of anxiety, but I let them go unrecognized for years. I, not knowing any different, thought they were normal. I hated going to school and meeting people. The fact that I need to talk, making conversation and socialize with everyone are scaring me. I know it might sounds silly, but I just scared being around people because I tend to overthinking  the worst possibility that might happens to me. Such as, “Did my voice annoys her?” “What should I say next?” “Why is he staring at me?” “Did I say something wrong?” and the most common question that lingering on my mind is, “I shouldn't said that.” Which is why I am a very introvert at a young age. One day, my family and I went  shopping for hari raya and the mall was jam pack like a tin of sardine. I started to feel sick, and my heart begin to pumping fast. My sister knew that I am not comfortable in a crowded places so she hold my hand tightly and help me find my clothes as fast as we can. After that, we head back to the car because I can’t wait to go home. Just about a few minutes in a car, the feeling kicking back in as I remembering what happened earlier. I feel like my head is spinning like a marry-go-round and I started to throw up. My mom notice that my face is turning blue and the next thing I know is I am at a hospital. Nothing’s major really, I just happen to forget how to breath when I am panic. So she teach me a few breathing exercise gave me a aroma therapeutic oil. Then, she told me that I shouldn't think that way. She said “Having a thoughts is important but also it can be dangerous so don’t let it controls you.”  Then, I begin to follow her advise and started to have friends.  I, now have someone that I can talk, laugh and joke with. I realize, how stupid I was before. Sometimes, we care too much of the things that does not matter.